I am looking forward to having another baby but sort of dreading my maternity leave next fall. Spending a whole day alone with a kid, five days a week, for three months -- and every Friday with two kids! Sort of scary. I have invested so much into developing a professional identity this year that I'm afraid I'll just dissolve into a meaningless mess without it, like a sugar lump in the rain. I'm not judging anyone else's personality or choices here, just telling you something about my own.
Yesterday was both encouraging and not. Henry and I spent the whole day together; my classes have ended, Ken had to work, and we've ended the arrangement with the Friday babysitter (she's about to deliver a baby of her own and perhaps a bit overwhelmed). So Henry and I had a typical stay-at-home-mom type of day, namely avoiding any staying at home at all costs: a walk in the Fresh Pond Reservation, lunch at a cafe in Cambridge (here he is, eating a sandwich at Hi-Rise), a couple of hours in a Cambridge public library, and the discovery of a new playground, also in a part of Cambridge where we haven't been before. I have to say, the kid is really good company. It wasn't a bad day. (Because I wasn't trying to get anything else done, at all.)
I also don't mean to whine about
having maternity leave next fall: most women in this country don't
get three months off at full pay, so it's by virtue of having successfully cultivated some appearance of professional dynamism (e.g., academic employability) that I will find myself in this situation at all. And only briefly, then it's back to the usual and highly validating working-mom routine. (One semester is nothing.)
Meanwhile: a playground structure shaped like a brontosaurus, though Henry insisted it was a fire truck:
A conversation with a random 4-year-old on the playground, who didn't much care about the dinosaur thing either.
Henry: This is a fire truck.
4-year-old: No, it's a Power Ranger. I call it my Power Ranger. The fire truck is over there.
Henry: No, that one is a tractor. This is a fire truck. Here is where I keep my hoses and stuff, and there is the ladder.
4-year-old: Um, okay.